December 2010
that may have been the most touching post i’ve ever read, like no joke.
i found a picture of us the other day. not one from eighth grade, but one from when we were little. it was so cute. i wanted to show it to you, but i was scared. i thought you hated me, and wanted nothing to do with me. i had really thought you’d forgotten i was ever in your life. i thought i would go the rest of my life without ever saying or hearing another word to/from you. whenever i hear or see something that makes me think of you or something we did together, i try and think of something else. because i thought since you forgot them, i should to. amd whenever one of us had a “tbh” status, and the other one liked it, we never knew what to say to eachother. it would be like “your pretty & nice” or something. but this is my real to be honest. whenever i go talk to christian, or anyone and you’re standing there..i feel so awkward. i get nervous& dont know what to say. but after you’re letter, it seems like you feel the same way.
and when everything happened last year…even though you never did anything mean, it probably hurt the most that you never said anything. but i dont want to make you feel bad. because after that letter, i think i love you again. not that i ever hated you, cuz i didnt. i just didnt wanna love someone who i didnt think loved me back. im kind of even scared to post this, but i shouldnt be. the apologies from everyone else came all at once. and none of them meant as much as the one from you. i wanna say so much more to you, but im like shaking as im typing…and i dont really know what else to say.
thank you so much. i love you.
me
So touching. Love is what makes the world spin.
:(
So touching. Love is what makes the world spin.
:(
Leave an anonymous message in my inbox detailing:
- One thing you love about me
- One thing you hate about me
- One thing you want to say to me but can’t otherwise
i have a couple,
the first one would definitely be my parents telling me they were splitting up. i cant even think about it.
the second:
last year.second semester it was the hardest thing i’d ever dealt with…i dont like to talk about what exactly happened on here though, but i’ll tell you what it did to me. lets just say, it took ALL of my confidence. like during curtains, i could have made so many friends. But, i was to afraid to talk to anyone because i had this fear that everyone hated me, even if they didn’t know me. i would wear sunglasses inside, in the rain, even at night sometimes just because i didnt want anyone to see the mole. it was too ugly. i felt like penelope. i still get flashbacks to it randomly. the anonymous messages, the mean looks, the texts, rally day. i know i act like i forgot about it, but it’s still there. i dont hate the people AT ALL. i dont even have resentment towards them. like seriously. im friends with a bunch of them! but still.
i have a couple,
the first one would definitely be my parents telling me they were splitting up. i cant even think about it.
the second:
last year.second semester it was the hardest thing i’d ever dealt with…i dont like to talk about what exactly happened on here though, but i’ll tell you what it did to me. lets just say, it took ALL of my confidence. like during curtains, i could have made so many friends. But, i was to afraid to talk to anyone because i had this fear that everyone hated me, even if they didn’t know me. i would wear sunglasses inside, in the rain, even at night sometimes just because i didnt want anyone to see the mole. it was too ugly. i felt like penelope. i still get flashbacks to it randomly. the anonymous messages, the mean looks, the texts, rally day. i know i act like i forgot about it, but it’s still there. i dont hate the people AT ALL. i dont even have resentment towards them. like seriously. im friends with a bunch of them! but still.
I have anon, don’t be shy.
I’m bored and I’m tired of dancing to Disney.